why is it always like this? you said i'm left out because you're afraid i'd turn against you if something bad happens. but you all are where i feel most at home with. or felt, rather. because now i don't know what's happening anymore. can't you see? it's what you're doing that's making me drift away. leaving me out, casting me aside. you may not realise it but it's really inflicting mental hurt on me. you. it's all your fault. if it wasnt for you, it wouldnt be like this. you told me you had no group. you told me you would group with me. and after all that, you told her you were doing with her and you just left me alone. only until the last moment did i only realise what you've done. you say it's easy for me to get another group but it's not. it really is not. have you ever been thrown aside like me before? no you havent. you've always had a welcoming group for you and when you didnt, you came to me and in the end you left me behind. i suffered so much and it's all your fault. how can you act like nothing's happened? you know what's happened and i dont know if you know how much you've hurt me but you have hurt me a lot. i really can't take it anymore. and if i had to go through all this ordeals one more time, i think it'll be the bottomline for me already.
thankyou ethel for the hug that i really really really really needed during recess. although it made my eyes water, it really made me feel loads better. (: its a wonder what hugs can do. love you loads (:
i didnt pay attention in science. i was thinking of other stuff. supposed to watch potc today but something happened. and im not gonna talk about it.
kaybye.
My mind's unweaving/ 3:49 PM
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IRIS
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